2 posts tagged “life”

Ok, so you know how excited I was about volunteering at Safe Place this first half of the year?  Well, due to my inability to read the fine print, I will not be able to volunteer there.

Apparently you have to email them ahead of time to sign up just to attend an orientation.  They have a limited number of spaces.  Last week I emailed in a hurry to see if I could still sign up.  The session was full, so they offered me a position in March.  The trouble is, if I actually make it to the volunteering round, I have to dedicate 6 months of my time.  Which I won't have to give if I start in March/April. 

Why you ask?  Because I'm moving.  My lease is up June 30.

Where you ask?  Dallas.  More than likely.  Probably.

Why you ask?  Because Dallas is the halfway point between our families.  We went to visit my family the other weekend and Damion loved them more than the first time he met them.  Of course, everyone loves my family.  But he wants to have them involved in our lives, and I do too, duh. 

So.... guess what that means!  Back to the drawing board.  Possibly, literally.

I wish I were one of those people with very few interests and knew exactly what they wanted to pursue in life.

I am not one of those people.

It's not like I don't want to do anything with my life.  It's that I want to do TOO MUCH.  I want to help people and make a difference, but I also love to be creative.  Problem is, I also want to be comfortable financially and not worry about how to make ends meet.  So I'm trying to figure out a way to do it all, but it's driving me nuts!

I'm trying to work out a tentative plan, which is very if.... then... Because I have to make something happen, but I have to wait a while to see if it will take effect and allow me to get where I wanna be.

For instance:

-IF I want to get into social work and take on issues such as family violence, THEN I need to get educated
-IF I want to get educated on social work, THEN I need to make sure I want to go back to school
-IF I want to go back to school, THEN I need to make sure I like what I'm going back for, and volunteer somewhere (i.e. SafePlace Austin)

-and-

-IF I want to start a photography portait business, THEN I need some experience and a portfolio
-IF I want more experience in photography, THEN I need a new digital camera THEN I need some education, THEN maybe get a new mentor

See what I mean?

I know it's all a matter of just doing it, but things like time and money get factored in and it really makes things difficult.  I dunno, what do you think?  Should I pursue these all at the same time?  Should I take on one at a time?  Should I abandon it all?  Ugh, I just don't know.